yawn

yawn.
i refused to put on makeup today.
emails to reply to, phone calls to return...and yet, nothing i want to say, nothing really to say.
i have a lot of mosquito bites. i do not like bugs that suck your blood.
a hint of a headache.
bath tub calling my name.
i have never felt so lost and so found.
yawn. causes my eyes to water.
maybe i should just get on a plane and figure it all out when i get there.
two weeks and three days.
a few more conclusions.
sleep is easy these days. dreams of my days have stopped. just sleep.
yawn.
but it is never enough. i am always sleepy.