"thought that i was young"

something has to change.
oh wait, everything is changing.
debbie says that i fear being weak. i think i fear other people seeing that i already am weak.
if i just ran away, it wouldn't solve my problems, but maybe i would at least be able to catch my breath before dealing with them.
"no pills for what i fear" sings neko case. and i agree. "this is crazy. i wish i was the moon tonight."
i think i am going to vomit.
there's no one. there's no one i want to call.
and i wipe tears from my eyes. and wrinkle up my forehead.
i won't let God be enough.