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a string of pop songs play in my head. sometimes when i am all alone i sing them at the top of my lungs and pretend i am on stage performing in a sold out arena.

who knew a young man in d.c. could be pondering the exact life questions i have been pondering? i hope one of us finds the answers soon.

i am not a morning person unless sarah happens to be around in the morning. then i can talk and talk and laugh and laugh. i don't even mind getting up at six to have breakfast with her and richard. i mean, damn, six is early. but i love them that much. maybe when we share a duplex (pool house plan has now melted into a duplex plan) we can all have breakfast together at least a few times a week. that would be worth getting out of bed.

is it possible to feel like a failure and still have a good day? that explains my present state: failure yet overall content with my day. i don't think i have ever had such a day.

my birthday is in ten days. i will be twenty-three. that seems awfully young and oddly old.

sometimes it is easier to remain silent than to regret what was said.

today i sealed a few hundred small tiles. and i also applied for yet another job. i watched another episode of general hospital (trains collided at the end. and it just so happened that nearly the entire cast could be found on one or the other train. and the plot thickens.) and i yelled at my puppy to stop barking countless times. i thought about calling sarah, but thought i shouldn't disturb her in her great efforts to get work done, besides i just talked to her yesterday and i really didn't have anything important to say. i picked my brother up from school and sang mates of state at the top of my lungs all the way home. joseph laughed whenever i messed up the words, which actually wasn't too many time considering all the words in their songs. and then i thought, wow, imagine all the brain space i have used up for countless amounts of lyrics. i mean, countless amounts.

long post. but i guess it has been awhile.