tired girl

i have spent the last forty-eight hours with family--some of which i hadn't seen in three years. they have fed me. jaimie has photographed their faces and feet. and i am now going to pass out from exhaustion. but wait, i have a zillion of pages to read and problem sets to finish and comments to post. sigh. i am happy jaimie drove up to fort worth, but i think the girl was trying to kill me. or maybe she was hired by sarah in hopes i would fail my classes and have to be in school this fall.

funny story: i got an "a" on my first macroeconomics test.

i have three weeks left in fort worth. three weeks. i haven't seen friends since thursday, which is oddly okay. i should get used to not seeing them often anyways.

my eyes want to close.

i couldn't fall asleep until after one this morning. i was thinking about emails received and emails sent. i was thinking about what cities i would like to live in. i was thinking about why i would want to live in them. i was thinking that maybe i am not as brave and gutsy as people say i am. i was thinking it would be easier if i just went home now and never came back. i was thinking it is not better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. i was thinking they won't know the difference. i was thinking that i need to fall asleep because i have to get up in the morning. i was thinking about "what if" and asking "why not." i was thinking about God's laughter. i was thinking my baby sister is not a baby.