audra and dark and mysterious

audra called me last night, which was both a surprise and a wonderful treat. i was able to yell at her for not blogging and she yelled at me for not stopping in austin on my way to san antonio this past saturday. she was right. i wanted to stop and see her. and i should have convinced sarah and richard to do it. next time i drive through austin, i will stop, my dear friend audra. i adore our friendship. we can go weeks, even months, without talking and then one of us picks up the phone (usually audra) and it as if no time has passed. we have nice long conversation about what has or has not occurred in the last weeks, even months, and it is extremely fun. she is crazy. i am crazy. if you put two crazy girls together, the outcome is obvious.

forget tall, dark, and handsome. give me dark and mysterious. so there is this guy i see everywhere on campus. he is in a couple of my classes. i see him at multiple coffee houses. i see him at bookstores. i see him on my way home or waiting for friends. every bloody day i see this kid. and he fascinates me. and i can sum up this fascination with three words: dark and mysterious. i know he is intelligent because he has intelligent things to say in class. but he is also a loner. and walks around campus with headphones listening to good music (i know this, because i have overheard). but in his shy-quiet-loner-ness state he doesn't ever make eye contact. i want to shake this boy. i want to walk up to him or stop as we pass each other and say, "sean, i see you every day. i know who you are. you know who i am. a little eye contact would be nice. hey, who knows? maybe occasionally a little smile. i mean, if you happen to be happy or what not." is that too much? i am sure he will think i am weird. but who knows, maybe he won't. and even if he does, i don't think i care. but the day is coming soon. i am going to confront him. oh, but i just had a thought. what if i talk to him and he isn't as cool as he is in my mind? he will no longer be mysterious. he might just be this guy with dark hair who listens to good music. well, at least he listens to good music.