conversation

"i'm lost. and maybe no one has noticed or maybe no one cares. but i am. i'm lost."
"i know."
"so, what do i do?"
"you have to figure it out for yourself."

hiccups

i have the hiccups.
i was worried all day. and i couldn't stop thinking about it consistently for over four hours. i even prayed, and i don't usually pray. and i get it, you forgot. but i didn't.
no more boyfriend talk. no more.
i am sick of feeling lonely. and i think loneliness is making me sick.
i don't want a boyfriend.
blah on boys.
i don't want to need people. it makes me feel weak. and vulnerable. and, well, needy.
maybe the solution is simply mind over matter: i don't need people. i don't need people. i don't need you. or you. or you. or you. i don't need people. i don't need people.
is it working yet?
i think i am going to throw-up.
the hiccups stopped.